Angry

I can't say that I'm angry, I'm more hurt then anything although I might seem like I'm angry. I wish I could tell him how truly upset that I am. He doesn't seem to understand that everytime he hurts me it makes it harder and harder to forgive him. But this time it's different. He thinks by just saying sorry that I'm going to forgive him well he messed up I just don't know right now about all the forgiving. I'm at a loss for words. I mean if you're boyfriend wanted to move in with some female that you didn't know you'd flip out too. It hurts just to think about it. I've already told him that I didn't feel comfortable with him living with a female besides myself. I think that he got upset that I actually said that I didn't think that it was a good idea. And he doesn't seem to understand that I need time to be able to talk to him like I used to, he's acting like nothing ever happened, but it did and he needs to understand that. And on top of that he keeps saying that he's worried about me. You're worried about me so you're going to live with some female that's how you're going to show it. What a bunch of crap I think at least. Maybe I'm being to hard on him as everyone says but I don't think I am. I put my foot down after keeping my mouth shut on a lot of things. I finally spoke my mind and if he can't handle it then maybe it's not meant to be. Who knows except God right.
But I need time to forgive him because I know that he's just going to hurt me yet once again like always. I'm tired of being hurt. If this is what love is all about I want no part in it at all. I'm actually done. Ever since I told him that I'm at the end of my rope he's been trying to keep me from leaving but the next time he hurts me I think I'm going to walk right out the door and be gone forever. I don't care if he comes back and begs and pleads for me to take him back this time. I admit last time I was in the wrong for what I did, but I'm done; meaning I can't do this anymore.