Angry

I can't say that I'm angry, I'm more hurt then anything although I might seem like I'm angry. I wish I could tell him how truly upset that I am. He doesn't seem to understand that everytime he hurts me it makes it harder and harder to forgive him. But this time it's different. He thinks by just saying sorry that I'm going to forgive him well he messed up I just don't know right now about all the forgiving. I'm at a loss for words. I mean if you're boyfriend wanted to move in with some female that you didn't know you'd flip out too. It hurts just to think about it. I've already told him that I didn't feel comfortable with him living with a female besides myself. I think that he got upset that I actually said that I didn't think that it was a good idea. And he doesn't seem to understand that I need time to be able to talk to him like I used to, he's acting like nothing ever happened, but it did and he needs to understand that. And on top of that he keeps saying that he's worried about me. You're worried about me so you're going to live with some female that's how you're going to show it. What a bunch of crap I think at least. Maybe I'm being to hard on him as everyone says but I don't think I am. I put my foot down after keeping my mouth shut on a lot of things. I finally spoke my mind and if he can't handle it then maybe it's not meant to be. Who knows except God right.
But I need time to forgive him because I know that he's just going to hurt me yet once again like always. I'm tired of being hurt. If this is what love is all about I want no part in it at all. I'm actually done. Ever since I told him that I'm at the end of my rope he's been trying to keep me from leaving but the next time he hurts me I think I'm going to walk right out the door and be gone forever. I don't care if he comes back and begs and pleads for me to take him back this time. I admit last time I was in the wrong for what I did, but I'm done; meaning I can't do this anymore.

Sensual Fantasy

So I'm feeling quiet sexy tonight. I've been thinking of things that I want you to do to me....but I will go into that in a few minutes...let's clear something up first. I miss you being inside me at night, showing me that you want me, fight for me to be with you so close that we can't get any closer. Well tonight is the night where I tell you about my fantasy in turn.

So here's what I want you to do; I want you to get all comfy and start reading, use your imagination to picture what I'm saying.

You're making dinner when I come in wearing nothing but a black lace baby doll. I climb on top of the table while you're cutting vegetables, and I take a cut piece in my mouth. You come over and turn me around and take the vegetable from my mouth with yours; you start kissing me and I kiss you back going from your mouth to your neck, and keep going down farther. I ask you if you want me to stop, "No, no" you say, "this is just getting good." So I keep going. You pull me up and carry me to the bed room...where you throw me down on the bed. I then raise up off of the bed to get you closer to me and start undressing you. I then take and push you on the bed and climb on top of you, but you roll me over, and begin to tie me to the bed. I can feel your mouth going all over me and that's when I go crazy I'm beyond ecstasy right now. You then untie me after you're done and let me do as I please. First I go run a shower and tell you to follow me as I'm climbing in. You come and join me in the shower I begin to rub soap on my hands and then start touching your body. Now it's all slippery and I want you more than ever. I can't wait until we get out of the shower I have to have you then. So I push you hard against the wall, turning you on even more, I begin to kiss you and you know what I want. You take and put your hand in between my legs and start messaging me, I then start to moan and breathe a little harder. You then pick me up and throw me against the wall and enter inside me. I tell you I want to move to the bed, still inside me, you gently lay me down and slowly pick up the rhythm of things. I tell you I want to be turned over and I just lean over the bed and it's beginning to get steamy. You then turn me around and I tell you I want you to bite me, and pull my hair. This just makes things more intense. That's when I hit my final climax and you soon then hit yours.
I can't wait until next time because it will be even better.

Yours,
Sensual